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I always ask myself if I am living the life I have always dreamed of or wanted ? Hahaha.. Boy what A tuff question ! Sometimes I wonder how am I still breathing and still here ? Everything I have done in my life has been one roller coaster after another and I seem to never learn ! This world is evil and maybe that is why I am still living in it. I enjoy living in moments and doing what I want ! I think that if you want to do something then do it or if you want something ' get it ! And if you got something to say then say it ! Of course I didn't live by that one rule for A min as you can see from my last blog. What gives people the right to judge ? What makes them so special that they have to make them self's better by cutting others down ? Who is perfect in this world ? I know I am far from perfect too far from perfect. I am only human and I breath the same air and nothing in my life is simple or perfect and sometimes I choose for it to be that way ! Just like when things go wrong in you're life you can really tell who you're friends are. For A example " When a boyfriend and I broke up and I found out that 4 females who used to be friends of mine , Two of them decided they was going to try to sleep with him , The other 2 are just drama queens that have nothing better to do then sit on A computer and make up rumors " And truly think they are better then others and like to cut others down. And A few of us have got together and talked about these ladies , We all figured we have the right to ask these questions ? One female is in porn and just can not stop her lies and gossip about how others being so bad but she is A angel and everyone is shit compared to her . The other female is A mess and really needs to get herself some help and A free clinic for A fact , this comes out of her own mouth so that is sure not A rumor " And at onetime i called her A friend not knowing how bad she wanted my long time boyfriend and I never would have guessed the things I heard coming back to him that has come out of all of these so called friends mouths . Now the other one oh my where do I start. She just wants to start trouble and just having A child over A year ago , You would think being A mother would come first instead of making threats on myspace knowing she is looking like A jackass and that she is as stupid as they come. This little red head was A friend of mine who I stuck up for like half of them who was always being picked on and known as vegas trash. I myself would give them the chance that no one wanted to give them cause of all the trouble they would start. I guess I got played and I will know next time when half of A town warns me to be aware of the drama queens of LAS VEGAS. I can not understand how I was so blind and did not see that 2 of the girls or wait 3 that I have heard of had such A bad crush on my guy ! I was shocked ! And the one has A boyfriend and they are getting married ! Now the red head I was kinda little like wow but she does want a psychobilly or A rockabilly guy and will take anyone of them just to have one ! She is known to be A scene girl. This one wrote me in Oct talking shit out of no where about my man and her, Like they was some couple " Just being A stalker really bad. Saying off the wall shit that made no sense . He told me he ran from her that she was about him and he did not want her at all ! He don't even have her phone number. He thought she was a nut and We have been told by A couple other men that she get's that way even if you say hi to her. My man does not not like woman who get passed around with no respect for there own lives . And at one time she enjoyed getting passed to who ever wanted her . (POOR THANG) I guess I really did not know who my friends was. Now the other one is the whore of LAS VEGAS , I mean fuck how many bathroom walls can you have you're name up on that you had sex with them there ! But I knew how she was and I did not judge her. I took her in as A friend and I would invite her over for dinner ! I even stuck up for her in fights she would cause. Every one said she is bad news you will see she is truly bad ! But I thought she was so sweet and I was there for her when she needed A friend. I guess after almost 2 years I was finally seeing what everyone was talking about ! She has done so much to so many people that finally a girl in july had anuff of her and just beat her ass at A bar ! She has pushed away all her close friends and traded them in for females that are just as bad as her. We protected her one night and my guy had A bottle smashed on his head and she ran like A bitch. What A friend eh ?? And what kind of chick is proud to have A STD ? And tells everyone like it is A everyday thing ? And does nothing about it ? But keeps sleeping around ! That is some scary shit ! And when I came back to vegas that was all I heard about " It scared me so bad that I would not go to the bathroom where my guy was living at the time for the fact that I was afraid cause she had been there. And when 8 or more people would tell me she is at the bar bragging about the STD drunk and still sleeping with more then 3 different guys A week. Then we get A phone call by someone who was active with her and yells at us why did we not tell him. Well " What can we say ? People are grown you can't control others actions. If you are in A rockabilly or psychobilly band or not you are A target for her. And thank god more people are telling others to be careful ! This is not A joke it is A issue that is affected people I know and it's something you should not brag about but take care of ! and be silent about it and protect you're self. So when I found out about this I had A long talk with my guy and he swears he would never touch her and that she was nuts and would not leave him alone ! And I know it was true cause the day I got back to vegas she called him 10 times in in 8 mins and we counted ! She went crazy when I came back, her and the other one . Now if you are wondering why I am writing this out ? Well every time we turn around there are threats from the girls and shit talking and emails and we have kept quiet. I have tried to ignore these crazy bitches as best as I can And A few others are starting to lash out on them too ! So thank god it is not just me but a full gang of girls and men. And I am glad I am not some of these drama queens for the fact I have read some crazy stuff and there names are out on it. I wont do that " Do not need to do that most people know who I am talking about . I have saw myspace stuff on them and a website on 2 of them and I am just shocked that they have made that many people hate them to the fullest ! I have saw some girls plan out things for viva weekend for one of them for something she did like A year ago. I am glad my burlesque troop kicked this girl out ! We did not really have A choice , She went crazy on A band at A show and was thrown out and made her self look like a animal in heat . We all was ashamed of her and had a meeting in that hour to get rid of her for good ! this was not the first time . It is like taken A animal out with no leash < I have saw dogs act better then her! That is how bad she is and many , many , many others will tell you the same ! We tried to help her and she just does not care. She has no respect for herself of others for that matter. she will talk about you like you are just a dog then turn around and smile right in you're face! I know I saw her do it many of times ! People 's skin crawl when she walks in the door they know she is about to start trouble ! And who wants to go to A show where some drunk female is being a complete psycho bitch and not in A good way and starts yelling and screaming at bands and other females for nothing ? Who wants that ! I was one of those fools many of us was ! and who ever is with her she make's them look like A fool. I know I have saw it ! I really would wish she would get help before it is too late. So I can now understand others opinions on some of these ladies and now I know why they stay clear of these ladies. I feel bad for them still ! They are so unhappy with there lives that they try to hurt others and they do not care. They think they are perfect and everyone else is worth nothing. All that comes out of there mouths are lies and I have the proof of those lies and I am finally going to stick up for myself my friends and my guy ! Cause none of us people deserve what these 4 ladies has said or are doing or have done. And if it makes me a bad person then oh well I have full right to express the truth ! I have took the abuse way to long all the threats the phone calls the stalking is finally going to end and thank god over 40 others feel the same ! So please understand this is not bashing or shit talking this is the truth and i have let it go on too far ! for months this has been a issue and the more you ignore the more they start. I have saw 4 year old's who act better. My life has been privet for a reason and how they think my life revolves around them is beyond me ! and the stories they make up are insane ! I mean they are some whoppers ! None of them no the real me and none of them no my guy that is for a fact ! I have only met A hand full that really knows him and they are not from LAS VEGAS !He is from Germany and I know these 4 girls have nothing better to do then live in there own fantasies that maybe one day he will be there's ! Some kind of friends right ? I hope these girls get there act together ! Man it feels good to let this out !

Thank you